When you don't know yourself, the details of
others become vitally important. Yvette was walking away from the Chinese
Dragon, a moderately stylish Chinese Restaurant in downtown Denver, wondering
what kind of person she was. She had just met with Anderson, a hard-edged
rodent of a man who had offered her five thousand dollars to kill his ex-wife.
Initially Yvette had been shocked at the idea – and the fact that apparently
she was the kind of woman to do that – but she knew that her money was about to
run out and Anderson was the only source she had. Reluctantly, she had agreed
to the killing.
Anderson
had been pleased by that – of course – and offered a large bonus if Yvette
could complete the task before the end of the week. The bonus was so large that
Yvette wondered what this other woman was on the verge of doing that Anderson
wanted stopped. Whatever, it wasn't her place to think about that. She had to
keep her own belly full and pay her rent – however much it was. Yvette intended
to do what she had to tomorrow and collect that ten thousand dollar bonus.
Yvette
had almost reached her car when heard a name called out behind her. The name
itself, she hadn't heard, but her reaction was instinctive. Standing a few feet
away, was an unfamiliar man, tall pale, with ice blue eyes and sharp
features. How did he come so close without my hearing him?
"Rachel?"
he repeated. His expression was mild, but Yvette could sense something vastly
wrong with him. Maybe it was the way he stood, slightly hunched over to one
side, or the fact that he didn't seem to be feeling the chilly evening air ,
despite his being clad only in a light shirt and a pair of well-worn khaki
pants.
"I'm
sorry." Yvette apologized, "but my name's not Rachel."
The
stranger's expression changed, swiftly moving from surprise, to doubt, to
slightly forced charm.
"My
mistake." he apologized. "Is it possible that you have a relative, a
cousin maybe..?" Even as he asked, he seemed to know the answer.
"No,
I'm sorry." She turned away.
"Wait!"
Despite her best instincts, she waited. The stranger took another step towards
her. Now, he was smiling, the strain fading. He chuckled slightly. "The
resemblance is startling." Immediately, he asked "Could I buy you a
cup of coffee? There's a place just down the road."
Pickup attempt. Yvette sighed mentally.
There probably wasn't any such person as Rachel. Or maybe there is. Could he know me under another name?
Reluctantly, Yvette decided that there would be no harm in spending some time
with this stranger, providing they were in a public place. After all, there's not much else I could be doing.
"Alright."
She agreed, unsmiling. "You can tell me about Rachel, if you like."
She suggested.
He
smiled again, and Yvette saw a flash of emotion she couldn't identify in his
eyes. It seemed to be something between anger and hope. What could he be angry
about? That she wasn't Rachel?
"Perhaps."
They began to walk together to the nearby diner. "I'm Paul." He
offered.
Yvette
nodded and thought for a moment. Just because this man might know something of her old self, didn't mean she had to be
completely honest with him. "I'm Claire." She replied, hoping that
she would remember it, herself.
The
small coffee shop, was busy but not crowded. The finals season had just passed,
and the usual late-night crowd of college students was busy elsewhere,
celebrating the semester's end and graduation. Yvette waited while Paul bought
her a cup of decaf and himself a double espresso. Soon enough, he was placing
the drinks before them, his earlier tension gone, but Yvette could see that he
was very curious. That, in turn, made Yvette wonder at what Paul was hoping to
learn from her.
Fumbling
with her coffee cup, Yvette decided to remove the gloves she had been wearing
against the possibility of a later chill and out of a paranoid urge not to
leave fingerprints in Anderson's presence. Concentrating on pulling the thin
leather gloves off her fingers without tearing them, she didn't notice Paul's
intense scrutiny of the chore until she was almost done.
"Just
gloves." She said awkwardly, holding them out for him to see.
"It's
not that." He replied intently, not even looking up. "It's your
hands."
His
serious tone caused another prickling of her earlier fear. Yvette glanced down
at her hands, held out before her. They seemed perfectly normal to her.
"What's wrong with them?" she asked, trying to sound light-hearted
and failing.
"Nothing."
Paul was surprised, she noticed. "They're…" he realized his behavior
was disturbing Yvette and he quickly returned his gaze to her. He smiled
ruefully. "As I said, you really do resemble her – Rachel, I mean – but
now that I've seen your hands, I know you can't be her." His voice was
tinged with regret.
Yvette
tried to contain a moment of disappointment. She had let herself hope that
maybe Paul knew something of her. "What, did she have six fingers?"
this attempt at joking was no better than the last.
"No."
Paul's gaze was pulled back to Yvette's hands, now encircling her coffee cut.
"Her hands were scarred, severely so. She almost always wore gloves."
Yvette
drummed her fingers against the side of her cup. "But you knew – of her
scars?" she asked, curiously.
Paul's
smile was one of a pleasant memory. "Yes. We were rather close." He
told Yvette. "For a while." He amended. "But we parted on bad
terms. The worst. Seeing you on the street I thought…" he paused.
"Oh, you don't want to hear this." Again, it was like a switch had
been thrown, as he moved from distraction to focused charm.
"I
do." Yvette disagreed. "Please go on." She gulped her coffee,
wondering why she hadn't used that opportunity to leave. Reluctantly, she
admitted to herself that she was lonely. Her predicament left her with no
company other than the television and that had worn out its welcome within
minutes of their re-acquaintance. "It's very...interesting."
"I
can't imagine why." Paul murmured dryly.
Yvette
shrugged. "It's not every day a person finds out they have a twin –
almost." And if I can't know about
my life, I might as well ask about hers. "You say you parted on bad
terms. Did you want to apologize?"
Paul
shook his head. "Not really, no. I'm still convinced I'm right. I had
heard that her husband…" an awkward pause. The word seemed to taste bad to
Viersan. "her husband had left her. I was hoping that she might admit to
her mistake, then."
Husband? Yvette thought. I suppose that makes it certain that I'm not
her. Although if he had left…. She smothered a moment of self-irritation. Don't be silly, Yvette! You're not married,
and never were. "You didn't approve of him?"
Paul
smiled wryly. "No, not at all. I suppose it was very selfish of me, but I
didn't like him at all."
"Why
not?"
Paul's
easy expression faltered slightly. "Political differences, I suppose you
could say. And I don't think he treated her very well."
"Not
like you would have, I take it?" Yvette asked, seeing where this was
going. A chance to meet with an old flame,
she thought. We're back to the pickup
scenario again.
Paul caught the
sarcasm in her tone and understood it. "Pretty much." He admitted.
"I'd known Rachel for years. I thought she was marrying too fast, even if
she thought it was for the right reasons."
There
was a moment of uncomfortable silence. Yvette wondered why Paul had approached
her earlier – because he thought she was
Rachel, or merely because she had looked like that woman. Yvette feared that
Paul had simply apoken to her because he was seeking a reproduction of his lost
love, and she would have left, but Paul's last sentence had brushed the edges
of that blank expanse within her mind. Something familiar. Yvette sighed,
slightly. Maybe she was just trying too hard, desperate to make any kind of
connection with the rest of the world and her past.
Lost in thought, Yvette didn't notice Paul
gazing at her, calmly taking her in. She did, however, catch a moment of
intense surprise, quickly covered. Yvette pretended to ignore it, curious to
see what it would lead to.
"Have
you been outside all day?" Paul asked abruptly.
That's not quite what I expected, Yvette
thought.
"Yes."
she shrugged. "I've been running errands, buying groceries." Essentially true, she decided.
"It's
been a lovely day." Paul commented idly. "I wish I could have been in
the park, instead of working."
Yvette
nodded. "Parks aren't my place." She hazarded. "I'm not much of
an outdoors person. But the sun always feels good."
Paul
nodded, a half smile upon his face. "What do you do for a living?"
his tone was insistent, jibing with his casual expression.
Fortunately,
Yvette had already considered that question when she was in the emergency
clinic earlier that day, seeking a solution to her lost memory. "I'm a
security consultant." She lied easily. "I teach self defense, examine
people's homes for security risks and recommend solutions, alarms and
such." She had discovered that most of the books in her home's meager
library were dedicated to such subjects. Her meeting with Anderson had
reinforced the notion that she worked on the wrong side of the law – all the
more reason to conceal the truth.
"Really?"
Paul chuckled. "Curiouser and curiouser." He looked at her closely
and nodded, having reached some internal decision. "You've lost your
memory, haven't you, Yvette?"
"What?"
Yvette was stunned. "How do you know?" her shock quickly changed to
anger. "Did you do this to me?" she demanded, voice rising.
"Be
quiet!" Paul whispered sharply. Yvette bit back her next question and
stared at her companion, breathing hard. "How much are you missing?"
he asked.
"Everything."
She whispered, her voice hoarse. "Yesterday. All I know is
yesterday…" tears of fear and frustration prickled and she wiped them away
clumsily. "When you called me Rachel, I thought… I hoped…" Yvette
stared down at the table, feeling foolish and vulnerable.
Paul
touched her hand gently, causing her to look at him. He spoke seriously, all
joking gone. "I know your name because I think I do know you, in a
way."
"I'm
not Rachel." Yvette protested.
"You're
not." Paul agreed "But I think you…knew her." Paul chose his
next words carefully. "Rachel was a thief and assassin." Yvette
gasped. "Is it likely that you worked together?"
Yvette
thought hard for a moment. She knew nothing about this man, should she really
admit anything to him? Could she trust him? She hoped that perhaps his memory
of this Rachel woman might protect her – and it could be a connection to her
past. "It's possible." She conceded. "I'm in a similar line
myself. I think."
Yvette
took a sip of her cooling coffee. "Could she – Rachel – be my sister,
maybe?" Yvette wondered. "If we're so alike-"
"No."
Paul interrupted. "No, not sisters. She had a brother, I know. But no
sisters."
Yvette
wanted to cry out her frustration, but she was damned if she was going to do
that in public. "But if we're so similar…" she insisted.
"Superficially."
Paul qualified.
"Superficially?"
Yvette was incredulous. "I wouldn't call features so close that you
mistook me for her, that we work in the same fields, that you seem to be a
mutual acquaintance superficial."
"Alright,
alright." He held up a hand in protest, bringing a wan smile to Yvette's
face. "Given the current circumstances, I don't think it's safe to talk
here. Would you mind coming to my place?"
Yvette
began to weigh the risks and just stopped. What was the point of worrying? If
Paul was some kind of psychotic killer, who was going to miss her? Anderson?
Not at all. Once again, her loneliness and frustration provoked her, and she
stood up, ready to go.
Paul
was obviously surprised by her quick decision. Yvette raised a questioning
eyebrow. "I'm sorry," Paul apologized. "I keep expecting you to
react like her. Towards the end,
well… If I told her the sky was blue, she'd still look out of the window."
Yvette
nodded. "Stubborn." She commented.
"You
have no idea…"
Together,
they left the coffee shop and headed into the night.