Introduction from Johanna: These are finally being answered by me from Patrica DeMontfort's POV. I've been playing her for nine or ten years at this point, and poor Trish is kinda bitter, so don't be too startled by her tone.
1. What about you is heroic?
You're kidding, right? Let me think about that... I think killing Michael required a heroic effort of will, but is there an aspect of myself that someone else could look at and consider heroic? Maybe a model for others? No, I don't think so. I will do almost anything to keep my word to another vampire - but I very rarely give it.
2. What about you is social? What do you like about people?
I like to meet people, especially other kindred. Despite my efforts otherwise, no-one is an island.
I can admire people's ability to be self-deluding, even while I'm itching to change that state.
I enjoy the intellectual diversity within the human race and the indomitable will that can keep a person going against all logical reason.
I like people with a good sense of humor.
3. Of what benefit could you be to the current group?
Assuming you mean this court. Oh, I'm a great enforcer. I can usually frighten the whelps into line in very short order. I'm also quite good and finding that which is hidden - within a person's mind, I mean, not the more tangible things that I leave to the Nosferatu. I also seem to be rich, although I'm not sure why.
4. Why would you choose to join the current group?
I'm lonely. I need other kindred to keep me company. If I'm left by myself for too long, I become broody and self-destructive.
5. Invent an adventure/plot that your character would actively undertake (as opposed to just tagging along)?
Rescueing children from oppression. I draw the line at hurting kids, and I can't stand those who can't make the distinction. I'm not too tolerant of drug pushers, either.
1. What is your real, birth name? What name do you use?
Patricia DeMontfort. I still use it but, given that I'm past fifty years old at this point, I probably should look into changing it.
2. Do you have a nickname? What is it, and where did you get it?
I can go by Trish or Trisha, but only very special people can call me Patty. It's doubtful that you are one of them.
3. What do you look like? (Include height, weight, hair, eyes, skin, apparent age, and distinguishing features)
This is a larp. What you see is what you get.
4. How do you dress most of the time?
As well as I can afford. I like to wear dressy slacks in linen and cotton. I'm not a great one for dresses, although I get an occasional kick from a miniskirt. My wardrobe is rather monochromatic - black and a lot of light-neutrals. When I'm working, it tends to be whatever I can buy cheaply, with cash, and burns without too many toxic fumes.
5. How do you "dress up?"
That's when I'll drag out a nice dress or a long skirt, and I'll try to do a better job with my makeup. Some jewelry - always earrings.
6. How do you "dress down?"
Jeans. Not ripped-up, but still jeans. Old tee-shirts.
7. What do you wear when you go to sleep?
A long tee-shirt. It's black.
8. Do you wear any jewelry?
Not everyday. I have a ring from Michael that I keep for some damfool reason.
9. In your opinion, what is your best feature?
My mind. Oh, you mean physically? My hands.
10. What's your real birth date?
11. Where do you live? Describe it: Is it messy, neat, avant-garde, sparse, etc.?
I have a small apartment in Berkeley. I keep coming back to that town for some reason - and at my peril. It's very tidy. I like things to be kept neatly. My taste in furniture runs towards IKEA with just a little bit of Ashley here and there. Usually bright primary colors. I've installed recessed track lighting all over the place, as I prefer that to regular fixtures. My bed has hospital corners, go figure. My fridge has a variety of half-spoiled fruits and veggies within it.
12. Do you own a car? Describe it.
I have a reasonably stylish Honda. Dark red, two-door. I want something bigger and faster, but that would be little ostentatious.
13. What is your most prized mundane possession? Why do you value it so much?
I have a small ceramic jar on my mantelpiece. The jar bears a small plaque with the name "Michael" engraved upon it. You can guess what's in it. A distant second place belongs to my stuffed-toy sock-mouse. I've had it for a long time.
14. What one word best describes you?
Angry. Yeah, I think I can finally admit that.
1. What was your family like?
Bewildered. My parents didn’t really know how to cope with a petite genius in the midst. Otherwise, distressingly nuclear. My father was a patent-law attorney, my mother was a nurse part-time. I think her choice of career affected mine, but I can’t be sure. No divorces, no abuse. They treated me very well, I think, but they believed that a brilliant child needed constant stimulus and challenges, and I think they might have pushed it too far… but we’ll discuss that later.
2. Who was your father, and what was he like?
Mark DeMontfort. As mentioned, he was a little bemused, and always tired. Attorneys don’t get a lot of time off when they’re junior partners. He tried to make up for it with “quality time” on the weekends, and he was always kind to me and my mom. I think I grew up a little faster than anticipated. If he wanted a Daddy’s Girl, well, I failed him in that respect.
3. Who was your mother, and what was she like?
Anne DeMontfort. She worked part-time as a nurse at the local children’s hospital. Sometimes, I would spend afternoons with her at the hospital, and it was one of the few times I mixed with kids my own age. Mom was an optimist, always trying to find the best in people – she certainly tried to encourage it in me. But she also had high expections of those around her – myself included. She’s the one who pushed for my acceptance to the pilot “gifted child” program in our town…and into college by the time I was fifteen. She was doing what she thought was best, and I can’t blame her for that.
4. What was your parents marriage like? Were they married? Did they remain married?
Married for nearly forty years. It seemed like a good marriage. The fights weren’t very common, and they were quickly resolved when they did occur.
My father died of a heart attack in 1980. By then, of course, I had long since been written out of the family history. My mother is in her eighties, in a nursing home outside Toronto. I pay for it, of course, but she doesn’t know that.
5. What were your siblings names? What were they like?
No sibs. Thank heavens.
7. When's the last time you saw any member of your family? Where are they now?
See above. I have a few cousins, but I shucked them off when I went to college in California. I think the last time I saw a member of my family was when my parents and my cousin Gillian came down for my graduation from Davies.
1. What is your first memory?
Being frustrated that I couldn’t read my father’s newspaper. I remember thinking “I’m going to have to learn how to do that, and soon.” My mother told me I was about eighteen months old at the time.
2. What was your favorite toy?
Building blocks, and modelling clay. I could build things up and smash them down at leisure.
3. What was your favorite game?
Scrabble – once I figured out how to spell. I still play it, from time to time.
4. Any non-family member adults stick out in your mind? Who were they, and how did you know them? Why do they stick out?
My mom had a cleaning lady come in once a week, mostly to do the laundry. She was Spanish, and sometimes had to bring her young son with her. I remember being fascinated by the sound of their language. Toronto wasn’t known for multi-linguilism at the time…
5. Who was your best friend when you were growing up?
Um, I didn’t have any particularly close friends. I was too busy being “gifted”. Any acquaintances I made, I tended to lose within a year or two. I liked to visit with my cousin Gillian, who lived in town. She would be the closest I had to an ongoing friend.
6. What is your fondest, childhood memory?
Winning the K-6 spelling bee for the school district. I think I was eight. I’m not sure. I got my name in the paper and everything – big stuff to a little kid.
7. What is your worst childhood memory?
Getting teased for being the shortest kid in class – a constant occurrence when I was, on average, two or three years younger than my peers. I got teased a lot – namecalling and such, for blowing the bell curve and refusing to be dumbed down. That eased up a bit when my parents put me into a private school when I turned seven, but that only lasted a couple of years – too expensive.
1. How old were you when you went on your first date?
Fourteen. I lied through my teeth and convinced some eighteen-year old college boy that I was sixteen. It was an interesting couple of evenings, until I let slip the truth. Then he couldn’t get out of there fast enough.
2. It is common for one's view of authority to develop in their adolescent years. What is your view of authority, and what event most affected it?
Authority is not to be blindly trusted. Most often, authority is given to those who deserve it, but one must be careful not to blindly go-along with the greater masses’ definition of merit.
Just because a person in charge does not mean that they are smarter than you – but they’ve probably had more experience than you in a given field. Shut up, listen to them, and then make your decision.
3. What were you like in high school? What "clique" did you best fit in with?
By highschool, I was pretty disaffected. I was thirteen going in, fifteen when I graduated. I tried to hang out with the smart-kids clique, and they did their best to take me in. But when a seventeen year old is bitching about her boyfriend, and I’m still thinking boys have cooties… well, it was hard to related.
4. What were your high school goals?
Get accepted into a university before my sixteenth birthday – I made that one. Graduate as valedictorian – administrative politics blocked me on that one, although I had the grades for it. Graduate without getting stuffed into a locker. I almost made that one.
5. Who was your idol when you were growing up? Who did you first fantasize about in your life?
Oh, I was simply mad for Paul McCartney for most of the sixties. Or did you want a role model? Margaret Mead, I guess. Honestly, there were’t too many who had gone before me, for me to look up to. I was my own dam’ hero.
6. What is your favorite memory from adolescence?
Paying off the school hooligans to thrash the kid who stuffed me into a locker. I waited a year for my revenge, just to make sure I wasn’t implicated. I think I still have one of his teeth around here, somewhere… This was before I got hands-on, you see…
7. What is your worst memory from adolescence?
Realizing that my entire future was going to be more of the same. I was always going to be surrounded by people dumber than me, less motivated than me. Fortunately, my rather harsh assessment wasn’t quite accurate.
1. Do you have a job? What is it? Do you like it? If no job, where does
your money come from?
I’m not entirely sure where my current funds came from. That two-year gap in my memory is still haunting me. But I took the cash I found, ploughed some of it into blue-chips, and the rest I have asked the local mafiosi to “invest” for me. I earn money by turning the occasional back-alley procedure – yes, some criminals still go for “changing their face” – and by breaking the occasional set of fingers
2. What is your boss or employer like? (Or publisher, or agent, or whatever.)
The closest thing I’ve had to a regular employer would be Richard Gariano – the ranking mafiosi hereabouts. He’s retired now, and I’ve curtailed my work, too. Sometimes I work for his nephew, but that lad doesn’t have the old man’s charm. Richard could flatter the birds right out of the trees if he wanted to. He is an old-worlde guy in many respects – he values loyalty above all else.
3. What are your co-workers like? Do you get along with them? Any in particular? Which ones don't you get along with?
I’ve not held a ‘regular’ job in nearly thirty years – my short stint at a medical research lab five years ago nonewithstanding.
4. What is something you had to learn that you hated?
How to use a computer. I’m slowly coming around to them, but I don’t really like them much.
5. Do you tend to save or spend your money? Why?
Now? I save. I don’t know where I’m going and I want to make sure I have enough cash to get there.
Likes & Dislikes Questions
1. What hobbies do you have?
Aside from forcing people to learn about themselves? I had a long-running project that was exploring the physio/magickal link in the vampiric body, but I’ve let that lapse for a lack of volunteers.
I read novels and medical magazines. Sometimes, I go to the movies. I’m starting to think I might like to seriously redecorate my house.
2. Who is your closest mundane friend? Describe them and how you relate to them.
I don’t have one. Sorry.
3. Who is your worst mundane enemy? Describe them and why you don't get along.
Hm, I don’t know if I have one of these, either. I remember Detective Milne at the Oakland PD giving me no end of grief a few years ago, but I don’t think he remembers me very well. A vampire hunter had followed me to my job at the medical lab, and things got sticky after I threw something toxic in his face.
4. What bands do you like? Do you even pay attention?
Hm, I’ve liked some club music I’ve heard – Pet Shop Boys, Utah Saints, that sort of thing. I really like classical music – Holst, Beethover, Wagner - and some movie soundtracks – James Horner, Danny Elfmann, that sort of thing. Words get in the way, sometimes.
5. What tape or CD hasn't left your player since you purchased it? Why?
The Planets, by Holst. It’s so dam’ stirring.
6. What song is "your song?" Why?
One of my little friends used to insist that I had to adopt “Insanity” as my song, but I think that’s too obvious. Until recently, I would have said “Thin Man” by Suzanne Vega. Now, perhaps “Dogma” by KMFDM.
7. What's been your favorite movie of all time?
American Psycho. I know, it’s so obvious.
Before that, Notorious.
8. Read any good books? What were they?
An Oxford History of England. Informative and well-written, if a bit dry.
Less Than Zero, Brett Easton Ellis.
The Nature of Myth, Joseph Campbell.
9. What do you watch on the Television?
Movies, documentaries. I find sitcoms rather vile.
10. When it comes to mundane politics, do you care? If so, which way do you tend to vote? If not, why don't you care?
I stopped caring when I realized that no politician is going to give a rat’s ass about my needs. Why should I care about theirs? I’m dealing with enough politicians in the Camarilla.
11. What type of places do you hang out in with your mundane friends?
If I had any? The movies would be nice. Or a bar.
12. What type of places do you hang out in with your normal friends?
13. What annoys you more than anything else?
Willful ignorance. Blind prejudice. Blind anything.
14. What would be the perfect gift for you?
A rare book. A trip to a new and interesting place.
15. What's the most beautiful thing you've ever seen?
There was a little boy who went through a plate glass window. I rebuilt his face. It’s immodest to say, but he looked great when I was done. I took some real care with him – despite the fact that his family couldn’t pay me for the work. Some things, you just have to do.
16. What time of day is your favorite?
3AM, when everything is closed down and quiet. I like walking through city streets at that time. You meet the most interesting people.
17. What kind of weather is your favorite?
Blustery, slightly cool, slightly humid, clouds scudding across the sky. Usually in summer is best. I have an almost irrepressible urge to run around without my clothes in that weather…
18. What is your favorite food? What is your least favorite food?
Pre-mortem? My favorite would have to be a well-made pastrami sandwich. My least favorite would be anything featuring zucchini.
19. What is your favorite drink? (Coffee, Coke, Juice, Beer, Wine, etc.)
I’ve recently re-learned the habit of keeping food down – to my immense surprise. I love coffee. I couldn’t drink it much when I was alive – caffeine jitters were a bad thing in my career. And I like red wine, too – although I’m not sure where I got that predilection.
20. What's your favorite animal? Why?
That’s easy. Cats. Independent, sure of what they want and occasionally friendly – everything I want to be.
21. Do you have any pets? Do you want any pets? What kind?
No. No pets – I haven’t learned the trick of getting along with animals since my Embrace.
22. What do you find most relaxing? (Not as in stress relief, but as something that actually calms you down.)
A hot bath. Even with a non-functioning metabolism, I find a hot bath very relaxing. Part of it, I suppose, must be attributed to the whole ritual I indulge in when I take a bath. I go the whole hog – candlelight, aromatherapy, bubbles… It’s one of the few times I really pamper my carcass.
23. What habit that others have annoys you most?
Willful stupidity. Moral vapidity.
24. What kind of things embarrass you? Why?
I haven’t been embarrassed by anything in a long time. I’ll have to think about that…
25. What don't you like about yourself?
My inability to identify with most other humans – kindred and otherwise. I am unique and, through that, totally alone.
26. How would you like to look?
Like any other human. The cosmetics are getting harder to put on, every night. And twenty pounds lighter, or course.
Sex & Intimacy Questions
1. Would you consider yourself straight, gay, bi, or something else? Why?
Something else. Gender is meaningless to kindred. Sex is a hunting tool, not a means of survival, or even a pleasurable escapade. This is a revelation that came to me recently. Before that, I considered myself heterosexual.
2. Who was the first person you had sex with? When did it happen? What was it like? How well did it go?
William Harbart. He was a twenty year-old college student. I was in the same school at sixteen. It was a bit shambolic, really – the product of hormones, not romance. But it was alright once I got the hang of it. But I discovered the effort of finding and obtaining healthy partners who didn’t want a relationship – I didn’t have time for relationships – was not worth the effort.
3. Have you ever had a same-sex experience? Who with, what was it like, and how did it go?
During my breathing days, I was firmly heterosexual – and that has held true after my Embrace, until my little revelation. Since then, I have realized that I need not bit so picky when seducing dinner. However, I am more comfortable with men – I know how to handle them. Women keep wanting to get emotional.
4. What is your deepest, most well-hidden sexual fantasy? Would you ever try it?
Don’t ask me where this came from, but I once had an absolute fascination with twins. A ménage a trois with identical twins would be…interesting. Will I ever try it? No.
5. What was the wildest thing you've ever done, sexually? Who was it with and when did it happen?
I worked briefly as a dominatrix – post Embrace, you understand. Tying men up and raping them with a strap-on was…interesting. But not particularly enjoyable. The money was good, though, but not good enough to keep me in the profession.
6. Is there any sexual activity that you enjoy and/or practice regularly that can be considered non-standard? (Bondage, Fantasy Play, etc.) Why do you like it?
See above. Unfortunately, the consensual nature of BDSM negated much of my enjoyment. Why should I stop just because my partner asks me to?
7. Is there any sexual activity that you will not, under any circumstances, do?
Coprophilia. Bestiality. Necrophilia… well, does sex between vampires count?
8. Do you currently have a lover? What is their name, and what is your relationship like? What are they like? Why are you attracted to them?
No, I don’t have a lover at the moment. The last regular lover I had was, oh, five or six years ago.
9. What is the perfect romantic date?
One where he doesn’t ask for a blow job the moment he’s inside my apartment. Oh, was that bitter? Okay, I’ll play along. A trip to the museum, a good dinner at a fine restaurant and then a long walk through the city streets, late at night.
10. Describe the perfect romantic partner for you.
Intelligent, patient, possessing a high pain tolerance and extreme flexibility.
11. Do you ever want to get married and have children? When do you see this happening?
I never wanted to get married. I never wanted to have children. I don’t regret my non-procreation. For heaven’s sake, the child might turn out like me.
12. What is more important - sex or intimacy? Why?
Intimacy – only because it renders one so much more vulnerable than sex does.
13. What was your most recent relationship like? Who was it with? (Does not need to be sexual, merely romantic.)
Kim was another Malkavian. A masochist, a whore and a transvestite – although that latter fact never mattered in our relationship. He had a certain joie-de-vivre that I envied. We had a lot of fun, and I learned a lot about myself – about what I enjoyed and why I enjoyed it. He finally got bored – as men will – and left me for pastures new.
14. What's the worst thing you've done to someone you loved?
Killed them I’ll tell you more about Michael some time…
Drug & Alcohol Questions
1. How old were you when you first got drunk? What was the experience
like? Did anything good come out of it? Did anything bad come out of it?
I was seventeen, at a college party. I thought it was simultaneously entertaining, and scary. Things that I was trying to keep locked up found it much easier to come bubbling to the surface. I don’t think anyone at the party understood why I was so keen to start a fight… I think it must have been the first time that my very personal can of worms was opened.
2. Do you drink on any kind of regular basis?
Now that alcohol doesn’t affect me – and I can keep it down – I do. Almost every night. I do that only for the taste, of course. I’ll feed from an intoxicated human maybe once or month or so, but I’m leery of getting hooked, so I keep it under control.
3. What kind of alcohol do you prefer?
Red wine. Robust burgundies and chianti.
4. Have you ever tried any other kind of "mood altering" substance? Which one(s)? What did you think of each?
I got stoned once – again, in college. I didn’t like it at all. That ‘out of control’ feeling didn’t agree with me at all.
After that, there was my addiction to opiates. I loved morphine more than any human for nearly thirty years. I could just…get away from myself, take the edge off existence.
5. What do you think of drugs and alcohol? Are there any people should not do? Why or why not?
I think drugs are an experience that we all have to make our own mistakes with. If a person ignores the education that is out there and gets themselves hooked – well, they usually get what they deserve. I did.
The so-called ‘soft drugs’ are, I suppose, somewhat useful. They keep the humans amused and complacent.
1. What one act in your past are you most ashamed of? What one act in
your past are you most proud of?
This is going to keep coming up, isn’t it? Again, killing my Sire. At least, I think he’s dead.
2. Have you ever been in an argument before? Over what, with who, and who won?
Too many to count. You can’t get through med-school without a few fierce arguments, for a start. Usually over surgical approaches, or medical theory, or a million other things. I believe I won more than I lost, although my age usually put me at a disadvantage.
3. Have you ever been in a physical fight before? Over what, with who, and who won?
During my human life? I got into a few, mostly when I was in grade school. I got teased for being too much of a smart-arse. Unfortunately, since I was – on average – two years younger than those doing the teasing, I tended to lose the fights. But the kids got what-for for picking on somebody as young as myself. I was proficient at appearing big-eyed and defenseless by the time the adults got involved.
Post Embrace: Too many fights to keep track of really – although I would rather run that fight. Usually, I try not to get into a fight unless I’m sure the odds are on my side, be it through my own might or through having some overmuscled allies.
4. What do you feel most strongly about?
Children are sacrosant. No-one should be fucking with them. Let them have their few years of innocence before unleashing the horrors of the real world upon them.
5. What do you pretend to feel strongly about, just to impress people?
Almost anything. I don’t get that enthusiastic about anything anymore… Court politics. I pretend to be far more caught up in them than I actually am. The same holds for human politics, I suppose. Anything to keep them talking long enough to take them home…
6. What trait do you find most admirable, and how often do you find it?
Intelligence and strength of will. I don’t find it that often. Even amongst the so-called superior species, true strength of will is lacking. Too many people will change their mind at the slightest sign of difficulty. No-one really believes in anything.
7. Is there anything you think should not be incorporated into the media or art (sex, violence, greed, etc.,)? If so, what and why, and if not, why not?
Freedom of artistic expression is vital to the growth of intelligent minds. If only the proletariat could realize that it’s their responsibility to be culturally educated and be able to make rational decisions about what they see – rather than reacting viscerally, or at the promptings of societal programming…
8. Do you have any feelings in general that you are disturbed by? What are they? Why do they disturb you?
I’m continiously unnerved by my increasing disassociation from humans – living and otherwise. I want to be a part of their society – vexatious company is better than none. But I just can’t seem to share…anything.
9. What is your religious view of things? What religion, if any, do you call your own?
There’s no seperation of Church and State in Canada, so I received a vaguely Anglican upbringing, but I abandoned it rather quickly during my college years. Ironically enough, since my Embrace, I’m more open to the idea of an overall deity in charge of creation – but I’m also aware that my faith in It isn’t going to do me much good. Organized religion is a necessary outlet for the fretful masses. Let them have it.
10. Do you think the future is hopeful? Why?
Given the trends evinced by the past, no. I don’t think the future is hopeful.
11. Is an ounce of prevention really worth a pound of cure? Which is more valuable? Why do you feel this way?
Having dealt with nearly thirty years’ addiction to some unpleasant drugs, I have become quite the advocate of prevention. It may be bothersome, but the cure can take longer – and cost more – than you might think. Mind you, I’m still not sure how I kicked the stuff…
12. What's the worst thing that can be done to another person? Why?
The robbery of a person’s memories, their past. Deprive them of that, and all you have is a husk. There’s nothing there to enjoy.
13. What's the worst thing you could actually do to someone you hated?
14. Are you a better leader or follower? Why do you think that? If you think the whole leader-follower archetype is a crock of shit, say so, and explain why?
I would like to be able to say I thought the whole leader-follower thing is a crock of shit, but I know it isn’t. Some people really are better suited for following. With certain notable exceptions, I like to think that I make my own fate. When I’m left by myself, that’s true – I can make decisions and abide by them. But…put me in a group, and I start looking for ways to fit into the hierarchy. I think it’s a survival instinct, really. Fit in with the herd, and maybe they won’t turn on you when they find out what you’re really like.
15. What is your responsibility to the world, if any? Why do you think that?
I exist to teach people about themselves. I let them learn what really matters to them. Some of my critics might think it’s a copout, but my ability to cause pain while maintaining coherence really is a gift – and it’s one I intend to share. I just wish it hadn’t taken me nearly fifty years to realize that.
16. Do you think redemption is possible? If so, can anyone be redeemed, or are there only certain circumstances that can be? If not, why do you think nothing can redeem itself?
Redemption is a very real thing – both spiritually and morally, I think. But it takes a certain type of person – an inherently moral person – to crave it. Most people have been instilled with unshakeable morals, so I think redemption is within their reach. But for those of us who have been stripped of moral constraints… I don’t know. Perhaps it is possible for someone like myself to find redemption but, the thing is, I’ve long since ceased wanting it. I suppose, when I want it that badly, I’ll work for it.
17. Is it okay for you to cry? When was the last time you cried?
Is it ‘okay’? No, I don’t think so. I don’t like the way I feel when I’m crying – vulnerable, confused and ugly. I’ve only cried when under a lot of stress. The last time would have to be…three or four years ago, I guess. Right after Michael died – although that was from relief of stress…
18. What do you think is wrong with MOST people, overall?
They are stupid and short-sighted. They give up too easily.
Post-Supernatural Awareness Questions
1. When did you go through whatever made you supernatural? What was it
like (in your opinion)?
1970. It was bloody awful and probably still the best thing that ever happened to me. After the initially unpleasant weeks of my Embrace, I was in heaven – albeit a rather twisted version of it.
2. What do you think now of being supernatural? Is it cool, or have you been screwed?
It’s a hard deal, but ultimately to my benefit. As I’ve said, I was out of options in my mortal life, anyway. I’ve found a certain…balance…that never would have come to me in my breathing days.
3. Do you have a mentor? Who are they? How did you become their student?
No, no mentor anymore. There was Michael. Later, there was Richard (the Mafiosi), Kim (the masochist) and even Bootsie (the lunatic Brujah). They’re all gone, now…
4. Do you have any magical items? Where did you get them?
Not a one, and I wouldn’t have truck with them.
5. What do you think of the other denizens of the World of Darkness? Why for each? (If you haven't met something, do you think it exists, and if it does, is that bad or good?)
Lupine – they don’t seem to like me, and I don’t like them. We both seem to think the other is a slavering monstrosity – and we’re probably both correct.
Mage – I met one once. I could feel an enormous sense of restraint (and, yes, power) within him, but it never came to the fore. A good thing they are so rare, I think, otherwise we would all be their thralls.
Changelings – I’ve heard they exist, but I’ve never met one. Do they have antennae and wands? Do they have little sparklies in their blood?
6. Think of a major event that happened during your training/initiation. What was it?
Learning how to feed. It was…unsettling. Michael resorted to some rather drastic measures to get me used to the idea. He locked me up until I was near-starving, and then threw bleeding junkies at me. It worked, but it took me a while to learn to like myself again, afterwards.
7. What is something you had to learn during your training that you hated? Why did you hate it?
See above. I hated it because, back then, I still couldn’t accept my need to hurt others. I also had to learn obedience – real obedience, rather than just reacting to outside forces and going along with them out of a lack of a better idea. That was quite difficult.
1. What is the thing that has frightened you most? Do you think there is
anything out there that's scarier than that? What do you think that would be?
Aside from myself? I don’t know. I’ll have to think about that… I’m pretty dam’ scared by the fact I’ve got a two-year hole in my memory…
2. Has anyone or anything you've ever cared about died? How did you feel about it? What happened?
By the time my biological father died, I was too far removed from humanity to care much. I think I will feel my mother’s death more. I’ve changed since those earlier years, I think.
3. What was the worst injury you've ever received? How did it happen?
Well…Michael decided that I needed to have an intimate understanding of what I do to people, so I endured some very unpleasant evenings while we were together. It was all a bit of a blur after a while – Michael wasn’t as quite as deft as I am – but I do clearly remember having my teeth pulled out. That really hurt – not to mention the vinegar, afterwards…
4. How ticklish are you? Where are you ticklish?
If I’m ticklish, it’s news to me. I find the idea of being ticklish slightly repulsive, actually. What a foolish vulnerability.
5. What is your current long term goal?
Figure out where the fuck I was from 1997 – 1999.
6. What is your current short term goal?
Get established in the current court and convince the Prince that he needs a Punisher of Misdeeds. Shake off any lingering nastiness from my days with the Anarchs.
7. Do you have any bad habits? If so, what are they, and do you plan to get rid of them?
*laughs uncontrollably* I think I’m nothing but bad habits. Although I’m not as bad as I used to be. Somewhere in that two-year gap, I got off opiates – and I’m thankful for that like you wouldn’t believe.
Other bad habits: I brag without foundation. My temper is shorter than I would like, but I’ve stopped trying to quash it. I chew pens to a soggy mess.
8. If you were a mundane person, what would you do with your life? What occupation would you want, and how would you spend all your time?
Well, assuming I was healthy, I would go back into plastic surgery – preferably pediatric.
9. What time period do you wish you had lived in? Why? (Looking at this as an attempt to change history doesn't count.) What appeals to you about this era?
I can’t imagine living any time but now. In fact, I sometimes wish I had been born twenty years later. Being in medical school in the mid-60s and five years younger than the student body was hellish.
10. How private of a person are you? Why?
Despite my openness about my talents, I consider myself a very private person. There are some things that I just won’t talk about with everyday people – even kindred. Why? Probably because a lot of those private things are painful to me and I’m in no rush to pick scabs, or show off scars.
11. If you were to gain an obscenely large sum of money (via an inhertiance, a lawsuit, a lottery, or anything else) what would you do with it?
Sock a lot of it away in a shady African bank. Buy myself a ridiculously extravagant car, and a larger house with a well-built basement. Buy myself some good clothes. Endow a wing at the Children’s Hospital.
12. What would you wish for if you found a genie?
A coherent memory of the past. Some clear answers about what I perceive and what really is going on around me.
13. What do you do when you are bored?
Make up a little list of people I would like to see bleeding, and in what manner.
Read books – I like reading history, mostly, and medical journals.
Clean up the house.
14. What is the most frightening potential handicap or disfigurement you can conceive of? What makes it so frightening?
Losing my hands. Without my hands, I’m nothing. I wouldn’t be able to do anything. That and blindness really frighten me.